slowly but surely

So it has been a tuff week of adjustment but I have to say it is finally leveling out a bit.. baya and I are both making improvements to work it out together but I must say when we have phases like this it is not my impatience that is difficult it is my "mommy guilt"... I beat myself up over and over about what I am doing wrong and why don't I know how to fix it? I mean I should know right? anyways it is weeks like this that being a SAHM is tuff. I am grateful to see the light though lol. We are getting in more of a routine again and I know she is "listening" and learning to the best of her little 15 month old capability. The most important thing is for her to know we love her. One of my many flaws is that sometimes I expect too much and I am really going to have to work on that being a mother. Baya is amazing.. I wish everyone could know her like i do just so they could see how truly beautiful she is. We were standing in line at the grocery store and she started getting impatient in the cart and my first thought was 'oh geez I have to deal with this for 5 more minutes'.. but as I was trying to stand on top of my head (not literally) to occupy her I just realized how grateful I was for those moments and looked at my cart and everything in it. I had good healthy food to eat and the most precious gift i could ever be given. I am so fortunate for this girl and the MANY blessings she brings to my life. I am grateful that I get to be her mother for eternity!